I figured that writing this post at this time (1:30 am) will
be the best way of proving my loyalty to the nocturnal behavior. While most of
us are right now simply lying in bed in our comfortable soft pajamas thinking about
things that a boy, incidence or a wish is just one of the thoughts. While creativity
creeps in the late silent hours of night, some of us write :P, draw or simply
wonder how you failed the test you worked so hard for or how your first love
would have been your last if you tried harder.
Well, let me put it in front of you; with a cute little bow
and sparkly wrapping, that yes the dark time is the best time for anyone of us.
Yes, we all do love sleep. I would literally choose my bed over any guy in the
world. That cozy comfortable place, where you rest your head on the feathers of
dreams and wander off into the calm emotion erasing land of comfortable
inactivity. Okay nightmares may haunt us occasionally, but then what are dream
catchers and warm rooms for?
But come on, agree to it, you are the most motivated and
enthusiastic at this queer hour. While
the deepness in our thoughts ventures out and motivates us to take incentive,
we actually find answers to questions we never knew existed. Those questions
that were present like a cloud; hovering with their negligible weight, but when
cleared from the sky allow the warmth of a bright sunny day. And the answers? Ironically
create more questions. Those aren’t really ways to self-realization and reflection
but just paths and foot stones to other questions that eventually lead us to
the ultimate nirvana of understanding.
But some questions just don’t have answers! How much ever frustrating
that is, it is actually the most torturous but effective way of realizing that
a person, thing or incident is not worth of the rivers of tears that streamed
out of your eyes or the minutes of smiles you lost during the day.
It may seem weird, but I usually find myself thinking about
the capabilities of the human brain. While this is a more casual type of blog;
like me having a conversation with an ice cream buddy, I can shamelessly tell
that I do wish to do all the things at night that people are usually scared to
do and acknowledge. I am all praise for the thieves that venture out to do
something wrong (which is not supported in anyway) but nevertheless go out in
the lull of the city just to steal may be a car deck worth a few thousands or jeweler
worth a few lakhs. While their work is certainly not appreciated their bravery
and ability to not be afraid of the unspecified, unknown happenings of the dark
is applauded.
Not only buglers, but guards and policemen who actually roam
around as if earth is the safest place to live on. Anyway, I was on human brain
capabilities. It would be fun to imagine that you are just a molecule of air. Bouncing
around your whole eternal life doing nothing but……..bouncing around. But where
have you been? You could have been anywhere. In a medieval palace in Vatican City
or a creepy jungle in amazon that know human dared enter. In a haunted house
where silence haunts each corner or a beautiful garden with marble fountains
and close roses that would bloom in the morning while the dew drops slept on
them. The possibilities are unlimited and if that air particle would be your
mind? A mind that is now stretched by a new experience and thus can never go
back to its old dimensions?
Not all of us might have the same though process. We all are
different sure. But we are common in some way. Teenagers teenagers teenagers. What
do we always think about staying awake in the late hours of the night? Our crushes, our friends and how our lives
could have been better. And if you are telling me you barely wonder about
these, you’re lying.
Most of us have cried about that boy’s or girl’s smile that couldn’t
be yours and mourned over the lost best friend who you barely looked at since
the past week. Some of us have had forceful sleepless nights because a rude
fight where you pretended to be tough actually hit you hard. (Bullies are
affected too) or you just couldn’t sleep because you had too much coffee
assuming you would pull an all-nighter and study. (Well you didn’t)
Well the most hilarious thing is how one though links to other.
One minute you are thinking about how you have to fill groceries tomorrow, then
you will think about how the toilet paper is over. Then the thought of how you
are wasting toilet paper pops up. You will soon be thinking about deforestation
in the world and how it is important to save tries and from there you would be
probably thinking about how Switzerland is the cleanest city and how suddenly
your eye can randomly pop out and roll out into the snow and sit their camouflaged
laughing at you one eyed face.
Do you get it now? You can singlehandedly think about destroying
someone’s social networking life to thinking about randomly hoe penguins fall
in love. You may suddenly hear an old man giving you advice in your head or
hear your mom’s voice asking you to eat vegetables.
If you this is not magic, what is?
If the scientists wouldn’t have had nights without sleep, you
would be still switching ships to London. You would be still watching a black
and white movie and it would take me months to publish this. While passion
ignites at this hour, ideas are born from the strangest thoughts in your mind.
Well the ultimate
point of writing this is, what keeps you awake at night? For me night is the
time I actually get to do things I like. While on the weekdays of college it is
highly disastrous to pull the stunt of staying awake, in the days I am busy
playing social roles of a student, daughter, friend and a stranger. But at
night I am just a girl staying awake, listening to her favorite rock band while
she types on her laptop.
Night is not associated with sad and emo like thoughts.
While darkness and silence can evoke emotions of hopelessness or just sadness,
they sometimes don’t. Nights can bring out the peace and creativity in you.
Some of us are really motivated at night and enthusiastic to try new stuff but
just lazy and tired to actually do it.
Nights are beautiful and silent. While everyone enters a new
dream every 3 minutes what keep you awake at 2 am?
PS- I didn’t mention about monsters because it’s extremely
late here and I hope to get some sleep too which would be a little difficult
thinking about things staring at me, being under my bed or just existing. Err…
